I’m closest to God in the big moments I’ve prayed for, where I can celebrate with Him. And I’m just as close to Him in the losses ): and heartbreaks, when I have nothing to lean on but Him.
Sometimes nothing big happens. And it’s just a cloudy day outside.
Maybe I talk to a few students or loved ones who need to vent to me for a while, and it brings me down a little extra. Maybe I’m not really sad or anxious throughout the day, but I’m just off.
It’s hard to explain, but once in a while, I’ll wake up with absolutely no energy. No desire to do the little things around the house. No motivation to call my friends. Nothing really wrong, but in these times, I don’t even have the words to pray, and I don’t feel like trying.
But the other day, when I felt like this, I made myself do one small thing. I got in my car and drove across town to the gym. I just drove in silence. While I was stopped, and blankly staring at a red light, I felt a tiny nudge, like God was calling me. It was like He was asking, Will you still worship Me now? On a day like this?
Wow! I started thinking to myself that God is not only the God of consolation and big moments. He is also Lord over the cloudy, nothing-special days.
So right there, in the middle of that blahhhh mood I was in, I didn’t complain or ask Him for anything. I just started praising Him for a minute.
God, You are perfection.
You are the King of my life.
You are a good and loving Father, even on days like this.
I praise You. I adore You.
It was almost immediate that I felt lighter. Like the weight of my day got cut in half. The circumstances didn’t change, but I did. And I felt awake again.
Sometimes just 30 seconds of praise is all it takes. God doesn’t need it, but we do.
It completely reoriented my heart that day, and it reminded me that God’s goodness is not dependent on how we feel or how bright the day is. Worship is also for the little, unremarkable days too. You don’t have to feel it first. You just have to start.
So if you’re having one of those cloudy days this week, maybe try it. Just thirty seconds of praise. Even if you don’t really feel like it.
God is still worthy. ︎ ♡︎ ˙ᵕ˙
